Indecision and some ranting

I finished Uni about a month ago and I’m still at a loss of what to do. I don’t need to wake up early to revise the definitions of Intangible Assets and their accounting treatment. I don’t need to pore over the various steps needed to calculate the Capital Gains Tax of a company’s accounts. Even as I’m typing this, I’ve already forgotten most of what I took many, many painstaking hours to memorise. Towards my final exam, I recall screaming in frustration at 3am in the morning, unable to absorb the sentence I had read 5 times into my puny, weak brain.

And now I’m free.

And I don’t know what to do with all the free time I have.

Don’t get me wrong. I didn’t spend the whole of those 2 months reading textbooks and completing seminar questions. I procrastinated. A LOT. I did everything I could to push the thought of exams into the back of my mind, while ignoring that feeling of guilt burrowing its way through me. I refused to go out, choosing to believe that as long as I didn’t actively appear as if I WAS avoiding my revision, it was fine if I spent a few hours checking out my Facebook or reading a few manga series online. I even made a list of all the things I would do after, and I would glance at that list from time to time, to lower my stress levels and to talk myself out of going insane and running out of my flat to scream at passer-bys. 

No more 12 hour study marathons!

I can play all the games I want till my eyes pop out!

Drawing Fanart? Art for Friends? Pshaw, of course I have the time for that!

What about getting a job? Shut up! It’s too early to think about that! (Jobs do not exist in this perfect world of freedom!)

I can go on my food tour!

Create a webcomic!!

Learn how to operate a camera beyond pushing the ‘Take Picture’ button!

Figure out how to design a website.... maybe!

Start a blog! Continue writing on this blog!

There’s more stuff on the list, including learning Japanese, and I couldn’t wait to get started learning things that I was actually interested in. But now, one month later, I still haven’t done most of those things, probably because I have so many choices, I don’t know which one to start with. 

But at the very least, I’ve started this blog, and I’m currently trying to make it look awesome and not so plain, but since I have less than awesome web design skills, this will probably take ages.

Here’s a little peek at what I’m currently working on:

This is Ares, from Vagrant Soldier Ares by Ryu Kum-Chel.

After I putting in the base colours, all that's left are the shadows and the background (which is the hardest part)

I didn’t used to like Korean manhwas, as the drawings weren’t to my taste and the plot lines were always confusing and ended in some epic anti-climatic twist (Princess Hours). I usually read the girly romance manhwas (Do you believe in Mogwaaaaaaaa???asgajhdfgsfss) so Vagrant Soldier Ares was my first action manhwa. 

And I loved it.

It was so different from other shōnen mangas where the hero makes friends with everyone including his enemies and they all live in a world where if you try hard enough, you can surely succeed. Ares was about a boy joining an established society of mercenaries and the battles he had to go through as the country was torn apart by war and people died, which is what usually happens in wars don’t you know, Eiichiro Oda? Unlike the more popular shōnen stories, the reader can’t comfort themselves with the belief that the heroes won’t and can’t die. The possibility of this happening exists in every fight they go through and this builds the suspense and actually makes me care more about them. I am so tempted to rant on about everything I like about this manhwa (I haven't even touched the different characters and the battle strategies and Baroona!) but I think I’ll dedicate an entire post to an Ares review some other day (and they all breathed a collective sigh of relief).

When I finish my Ares fanart, I’ll post it up on my Deviantart account, which I will link to this site, as soon as I learn to do that in a fancy banner type way.